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Jul. 10th, 2012 12:55 pmI hate the directgov website so much, it's the most useless thing that has ever existed in all of recorded time. I could have applied for tax credits months ago but I keep putting it off because the site makes me so fucking angry and their helpline staff are a bunch of unhelpful wankers. *smashkicksmash*
New Year's resolution: remember that dreamwidth exists.
I am officially self-employed now which is pretty cool - job seeking proved to be utterly useless so David is also joining in with me. Unfortunately I do not make very much money, but I guess everyone has to start somewhere. It would just be nice if I had even a little money to start with, even just like £200 would be so helpful right now. I spent £50 getting cards printed and have sold one. To my mum. :C
The only thing that is selling is pony stickers, which I have to cut out by hand. I said I would stop making them after Christmas but as it's kind of my only income I can't really just stop. I guess it's January though, and business sucks for everyone in January right? I hope it picks up soon.
I was thinking we might try and make some skyrim (Nightingales!) t-shirts, but I can't afford to buy the plain shirts and photo emulsion. I tried to sell things on eBay to raise some cash but things either went unsold or sold to idiots who can't read and just waste your time. I could take some money out of my savings I guess (because it's not like it's earning any interest anyway these days :/) but that's like my emergency "if the house burns down and you're left with nothing" type money so I'm reluctant to touch it, especially if there's no guarantee that I'll make it back.
Most of my worries are about money now and it's weird, but I kind of like that. It feels like an unimportant, trivial worry compared to the sort of thing that used to be on my mind. Obviously, my mum's cancer isn't just going to disappear but now that i've worked out what I'm going to be doing and where money is going to come from, I'm much better equipped to deal with things like that. I really love being self-employed and being able to wake up when I want or work in the evening instead and I feel happy about what I do, even now that I'm not doing very well I still feel ten times better than when I just finished stupid timewasting college of hate. Just being able to say, "I'm self employed" feels really good. I'm my own boss! I'm a businesswoman, like Rarity! YEAH.
Now if I could just earn more than what I'd get if i was working a minimum wage job everything would be perfect... :p
I am officially self-employed now which is pretty cool - job seeking proved to be utterly useless so David is also joining in with me. Unfortunately I do not make very much money, but I guess everyone has to start somewhere. It would just be nice if I had even a little money to start with, even just like £200 would be so helpful right now. I spent £50 getting cards printed and have sold one. To my mum. :C
The only thing that is selling is pony stickers, which I have to cut out by hand. I said I would stop making them after Christmas but as it's kind of my only income I can't really just stop. I guess it's January though, and business sucks for everyone in January right? I hope it picks up soon.
I was thinking we might try and make some skyrim (Nightingales!) t-shirts, but I can't afford to buy the plain shirts and photo emulsion. I tried to sell things on eBay to raise some cash but things either went unsold or sold to idiots who can't read and just waste your time. I could take some money out of my savings I guess (because it's not like it's earning any interest anyway these days :/) but that's like my emergency "if the house burns down and you're left with nothing" type money so I'm reluctant to touch it, especially if there's no guarantee that I'll make it back.
Most of my worries are about money now and it's weird, but I kind of like that. It feels like an unimportant, trivial worry compared to the sort of thing that used to be on my mind. Obviously, my mum's cancer isn't just going to disappear but now that i've worked out what I'm going to be doing and where money is going to come from, I'm much better equipped to deal with things like that. I really love being self-employed and being able to wake up when I want or work in the evening instead and I feel happy about what I do, even now that I'm not doing very well I still feel ten times better than when I just finished stupid timewasting college of hate. Just being able to say, "I'm self employed" feels really good. I'm my own boss! I'm a businesswoman, like Rarity! YEAH.
Now if I could just earn more than what I'd get if i was working a minimum wage job everything would be perfect... :p
Been at David's house this week.
I noticed that they have my home phone number stuck to one of the cupboards with all the rest of the phone numbers and stupid little notes (IDK they're just messy and it drives me mad because I want to tear them all down and write them IN A FUCKING PHONE BOOK FFS). Which is fine, whatever. They need to know how to get hold of him in an emergency and he never turns his phone on. Of course, his mum's idea of an emergency is a packet of cheese being opened and no-one there admits to having used it but... whatever. But she's written it with "141" in front of it to withhold their number. What the fuck, why?! They honestly think that I'm that manipulative of a person that I'd see their number and decide that he can't talk to them?! On top of that, she keeps making snide little remarks and saying things like, "seeing as we haven't seen you for TWO MONTHS" and "seeing as we're NOT ALLOWED to phone you" as if I'm trying to keep him away from them! Whether he wants to call his family or not is his choice and he knows he's more than welcome to use the phone, sometimes I remind him that he hasn't spoken to them in a while but he doesn't bother to call them anyway because his mum is so annoying.
But obviously their son is perfect and it's all my fault for being an evil bitch. Thanks. ¬¬
I spent £65 on concert tickets for someone I don't even care about for David's birthday, which is probably going to suck anyway because his stupid bunny-killing cuntface "friend" is going too, and this has resulted in me being overdrawn for the first time ever. I know people do that all the time and I caught it early so it's only a £10 fee but it's £10 I could have spent on something nice and I never ever make these mistakes and I feel so stupid now that I'm probably going to cry. I only spent so much because I know it's something he likes and I wanted it to be special and if we have to see that... thing D:< it'll be ruined for me because I hate him and want him to die in a fire. Fuck anyone who doesn't like bunnies.
AND we have no eggs or milk to make cheery uppy cupcakes, this is the worst day of my life! T_T
I noticed that they have my home phone number stuck to one of the cupboards with all the rest of the phone numbers and stupid little notes (IDK they're just messy and it drives me mad because I want to tear them all down and write them IN A FUCKING PHONE BOOK FFS). Which is fine, whatever. They need to know how to get hold of him in an emergency and he never turns his phone on. Of course, his mum's idea of an emergency is a packet of cheese being opened and no-one there admits to having used it but... whatever. But she's written it with "141" in front of it to withhold their number. What the fuck, why?! They honestly think that I'm that manipulative of a person that I'd see their number and decide that he can't talk to them?! On top of that, she keeps making snide little remarks and saying things like, "seeing as we haven't seen you for TWO MONTHS" and "seeing as we're NOT ALLOWED to phone you" as if I'm trying to keep him away from them! Whether he wants to call his family or not is his choice and he knows he's more than welcome to use the phone, sometimes I remind him that he hasn't spoken to them in a while but he doesn't bother to call them anyway because his mum is so annoying.
But obviously their son is perfect and it's all my fault for being an evil bitch. Thanks. ¬¬
I spent £65 on concert tickets for someone I don't even care about for David's birthday, which is probably going to suck anyway because his stupid bunny-killing cuntface "friend" is going too, and this has resulted in me being overdrawn for the first time ever. I know people do that all the time and I caught it early so it's only a £10 fee but it's £10 I could have spent on something nice and I never ever make these mistakes and I feel so stupid now that I'm probably going to cry. I only spent so much because I know it's something he likes and I wanted it to be special and if we have to see that... thing D:< it'll be ruined for me because I hate him and want him to die in a fire. Fuck anyone who doesn't like bunnies.
AND we have no eggs or milk to make cheery uppy cupcakes, this is the worst day of my life! T_T
I had a counselor's appointment yesterday after only about a YEAR of being passed around and stuck on waiting lists, I was referred back to my own doctor's surgery. The NHS never ceases to amaze.
She was surprisingly really nice and is the first person I've spoken to in a professional capacity not to say, "but a 2:1 is still good, what's your problem?" when I told them about my results and she was actually interested to know why I didn't appeal and stuff like that. And she used the word "twats", which to me is a bonus. XD
Then I came home and made red velvet cupcakes. Yay.
She was surprisingly really nice and is the first person I've spoken to in a professional capacity not to say, "but a 2:1 is still good, what's your problem?" when I told them about my results and she was actually interested to know why I didn't appeal and stuff like that. And she used the word "twats", which to me is a bonus. XD
Then I came home and made red velvet cupcakes. Yay.
I don't really care about sports but David loves ice hockey for some reason and he's been playing NHL 2011 all day every day and we had to stay up until 1am to watch the Stanley Cup final last night despite not really caring about either team. I feel like a traitor to myself for actually... kind of... enjoying it XD IDK I like seeing it when the men crash into each other and hurt themselves and it makes me lol that brawling is like a legit part of the game. SO MANLY. Ahahaha.
What I wanted to tell you though is that I now have this stupid crush on Henrik Lundqvist just from seeing his portrait in the videogame and a 15 second clip of him talking that was on in the ad break of one of the games. And I'm at a loose end today so...yeah.
( Pictures! )
Also, unrelated, I can't stop eating. I've been trying to replace cupcakes with wholewheat muffins and more supposedly filling and healthier junk and I still feel like a bottomless pit what is wrong with meeee D:
What I wanted to tell you though is that I now have this stupid crush on Henrik Lundqvist just from seeing his portrait in the videogame and a 15 second clip of him talking that was on in the ad break of one of the games. And I'm at a loose end today so...yeah.
( Pictures! )
Also, unrelated, I can't stop eating. I've been trying to replace cupcakes with wholewheat muffins and more supposedly filling and healthier junk and I still feel like a bottomless pit what is wrong with meeee D:
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Assessment appointment: it was okay! The lady was nice and she booked me into some classes for anxiety and assured me that I won't have to get up and speak in front if everyone or anything like that. Also, I can bring a friend if I want which is nice. She also said they have people there to help with employment (this is my big huge main worry) and that she thinks I'm in the right place. It was a lot less scary than I thought it would be.
Money: I have none. Selling stuff on eBay all the time but then I see nice things and rare things that I've wanted for ages and I can't resist so then I'm back to no money again. Lol. I suck. :B sooo... I'm going to be making lots of stuff to sell - I've bought some kitschy frames, one of my mum's friends gave us 2 big packs of blank keyrings, got my badge maker, new snazzy laser printer, sticker paper, canvases... loads of junk. So if you have any good ideas... XD
I'm still working through piles of sketches so you can expect to see more art soon. Mostly of pwnies. :p
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Pokemon Black and White
Mar. 8th, 2011 01:18 pmBad:
• Terrible wannabe Final Fantasy style intro. It takes itself too seriously but it's not good enough to be believable and this grates on me. I want pokemon to be light hearted and fun, whenever they do this epic shit it's just a distraction from becoming Pokemon League champion. ¬¬
• 3D environments = pointless showing off just for the sake of having something new to put in a trailers. Takes too long to move around certain places and doesn't enrich gameplay in any way.
• I miss seeing your pokemon following you around like they did in HG/SS, I liked being able to talk to them... it was cute. ;3;
• Your two friends/rivals are unbearably annoying. I never cared about them before, you always have stupid rivals like Gary and whatever that guy's called in Pearl and they just pop up now and again to fight you but everyone in this game is SO DAMN ANNOYING. They're always there bothering you for battles or help with something pointless all the time, they have the STUPIDEST MOST IRRITATING pokemon ever in their teams and even their sprites are ugly. Cheren is the WORST pokemon character in history. I haven't hated a character this much since Mitsunari. Someone just copied and pasted that Ishida guy from Bleach into the game but took away the few things that made him bearable and gave him a Snivy (because obviously I chose Wotter, who is a legend).
• Gym leaders are all lame this gen. I just beat some artist guy whose gym is made of honey. WTF.
• "N" is also a prick.
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• Terrible wannabe Final Fantasy style intro. It takes itself too seriously but it's not good enough to be believable and this grates on me. I want pokemon to be light hearted and fun, whenever they do this epic shit it's just a distraction from becoming Pokemon League champion. ¬¬
• 3D environments = pointless showing off just for the sake of having something new to put in a trailers. Takes too long to move around certain places and doesn't enrich gameplay in any way.
• I miss seeing your pokemon following you around like they did in HG/SS, I liked being able to talk to them... it was cute. ;3;
• Your two friends/rivals are unbearably annoying. I never cared about them before, you always have stupid rivals like Gary and whatever that guy's called in Pearl and they just pop up now and again to fight you but everyone in this game is SO DAMN ANNOYING. They're always there bothering you for battles or help with something pointless all the time, they have the STUPIDEST MOST IRRITATING pokemon ever in their teams and even their sprites are ugly. Cheren is the WORST pokemon character in history. I haven't hated a character this much since Mitsunari. Someone just copied and pasted that Ishida guy from Bleach into the game but took away the few things that made him bearable and gave him a Snivy (because obviously I chose Wotter, who is a legend).
• Gym leaders are all lame this gen. I just beat some artist guy whose gym is made of honey. WTF.
• "N" is also a prick.
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